wowweee... havn't blogged in an uber-long time... =) so... august has come and gone and september's now here... ooOOoo.. fun, right??? RIGHT??? i really don't know what to say... i dun even know what's going thru my head much less what'z going on around me. went to york frosh today... i must say it wuzn't the best experience in the world... it wasn't the worst or nething... but nothing really memorable happened.. =P now i kinda get why people just go and get drunk @ frosh week... cuz seriously, i think thaz like the only way u can have fun at frosh.
then again, i could just be cynical...i mean today WAS the first day... and well i hardly met anyone... i met two of becca's friends... but no one new really. and well i guess it somewhat makes sense, cuz u really meet the people when classes start and what not, right? and if i REALLY wanted to meet people and have the whole university experience then i woulda lived on res... or at least went for the sleepovers during frosh week. *sigh* so weird to be thinkin of myself as a frosh. in my l'il head, i'm barely a teenager... but in reality i'm almost done my teenage yearz... mad freaky!!!
so wat can i say about my day at york??? hmmm... lemme see if i can just list a buncha words that relate...
i felt
... bored ...
... lost ...
... out of place ...
... misfitted ...
... young ...
... small ...
... short ...
... shy ...
... tired ...
... anti-social ...
... in pain (3 canker sores =P ) ...
... vulnerable ...
the last one is especially true. i guess never have i been in sucha situation where failure was so very possible and i really need to open up again and put myself out there in order to meet people. it's like i can't really be shy, or else i'd go through my university life without talking to a single soul outside of classes... and well, that's not really cool. wells, today has come and gone... and well, it waz truthfully kinda a snore.. maybe it's cuz it's a different bunch of people... a diff type of people... most of whom are probably non-c... making it a l'il harder to relate to them... and a lot of second hand smoke too!! grrr... anywayz... praying and hoping that the other dayz i make it out to frosh a l'il better than this one... and definitely praying that the school year is much better.... *sigh* highschool dayz are over... i miss my friends... i walk around the halls and i know no one and no one knowz me... itz so different all of a sudden... *sigh*
welps, enuff venting for now.... be back with univ updates later i guess... =)
*hazel needs to grow up*
then again, i could just be cynical...i mean today WAS the first day... and well i hardly met anyone... i met two of becca's friends... but no one new really. and well i guess it somewhat makes sense, cuz u really meet the people when classes start and what not, right? and if i REALLY wanted to meet people and have the whole university experience then i woulda lived on res... or at least went for the sleepovers during frosh week. *sigh* so weird to be thinkin of myself as a frosh. in my l'il head, i'm barely a teenager... but in reality i'm almost done my teenage yearz... mad freaky!!!
so wat can i say about my day at york??? hmmm... lemme see if i can just list a buncha words that relate...
... bored ...
... lost ...
... out of place ...
... misfitted ...
... young ...
... small ...
... short ...
... shy ...
... tired ...
... anti-social ...
... in pain (3 canker sores =P ) ...
... vulnerable ...
the last one is especially true. i guess never have i been in sucha situation where failure was so very possible and i really need to open up again and put myself out there in order to meet people. it's like i can't really be shy, or else i'd go through my university life without talking to a single soul outside of classes... and well, that's not really cool. wells, today has come and gone... and well, it waz truthfully kinda a snore.. maybe it's cuz it's a different bunch of people... a diff type of people... most of whom are probably non-c... making it a l'il harder to relate to them... and a lot of second hand smoke too!! grrr... anywayz... praying and hoping that the other dayz i make it out to frosh a l'il better than this one... and definitely praying that the school year is much better.... *sigh* highschool dayz are over... i miss my friends... i walk around the halls and i know no one and no one knowz me... itz so different all of a sudden... *sigh*
welps, enuff venting for now.... be back with univ updates later i guess... =)